~JuZ a PiScEs beAr~
Name: Hui Ying (Joanne)
Age: 20
Schools: JPS, TSS, NP
CCA: NPCC
Horoscope: Pisces
D.O.B: 1st March 1986

Likes: Babies, S-M-A-L-L animals (n i realli mean small..), Doin handmake stuffs, 'Cold' jokes, Holidays! =P

Dislikes: Heartless & Fickle-minded ppl, Disappointment, Back-stabbing, Arrogant

Interests:
Sports like jogging, cycling, badminton, basketball.. cooking (still tryin 2 improve =P ), shopping, ktv, movies & hongkong shows

About Pooh Ger:
A crappy n noisy ger who loves 2 laugh & joke ard =) Frens always say i m very "cold"--> e result of saying lame jokes =p
Somehow i feel i m entertaining them lae, but most of e time end up nearly beaten by them.. haha~ Bet i realli tink too much..
Hmm.. i can be quite lazy too, but when i m set on one thing or doin stuffs i like, i will gif it all my bez.. so can consider 2 be quite hardworking too uh? hehe..

~PoOh wIsheS~
MP3
New Com
Digital Cam
New Shoes
Watch (big big one..)
Canvas Shoes
Skirts (at least 2)
Bag
Tops (at least 3)
Plain Shorts (at least 2)
3/4 Pants
Learn cooking
Learn baking cakes
Trip to HK & Taiwan

~My Pot oF hOneY~

Serene
Jiawen
Joyce
Seewen
Khairil
Peiyi
Qiaohua
Pika
Elisa
Alan
Ah Ma
Cousin-Yixin
Pui Man
Zhiyang

Credits

Layout by R.wan.F
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Adobe photoshop

~PoOh's TokiNg~

Monday, August 25, 2008

Does he realli like me as who i m?

Getting attached sld be a hapi matter.. oh well, initially i m.. but as time goes by.. it is getting tiring for me. There r endless of expectations from him:

1) Having long hair
2) Don't clip up my hair
3) Wear contact lens
4) Put on makeup
5) Speak properly (no wah liaoz.. jia lat etc)
6) No tees.. wear something more lady.. more sexy
7) Muz dress up
8) Wear high heels
9) Behave more lady
10) Be wif him as n when

I dunno if he realli likes me who i m.. if he is, den y i haf 2 change? At 1st i was still hapi wif tis change cos it is a brand new me.. until we went shopping on sat at marina. Tat day i was all dress up, a white skirt, yellow top, earrings n necklace, no clipping of hair, wear contact lens, makeup.. he bought me 2 marina for shopping.. he choose e clothes which he likes n ask me 2 try on.. although i m kinda uneasy wif e clothes he choose, but since he like it, i m fine wif it.

In e end he bought a black spa top for me.. n ya i m hapi lar.. cos is a gift from him.. but den, he was asking me 2 change into e spa top after buying. Hmm.. i wasnt realli ready as i seldom wear tat kind of clothes, i did try 2 push his request away.. but it seems like he was quite determined wif his decision. Though he did say "is up 2 u", but tat's juz onli mere saying.. he realli wants me 2 wear it. I was kinda upset cos i was happily dress up for him, but in e end he wanted another kind of me.. which is not myself.

End up i din change into e top.. he was unhappy.. tis makes me wonder abt our relationship. He is making me change into e huiying which he likes.. n tis means he doesnt like e original one.. den y choose me in e 1st place? Rite from e start he already noe i m a person who dun like 2 dress up tat sexy.. no makeup.. wearing spec.. but now he is expecting more..

Actually i dun mind dressing up cos i noe it is rite to make urself pretty for bf.. but his behaviour makes me feel realli upset.. There's no 'no' for an ans.. when i told him i wish 2 keep my short hair, he expressed to me tat he like gers wif long hair.. more lady.. more pretty.. n he's waiting for my long hair. Wat can i say den? Cant short hair be pretty too? So means i m ugly now? I m realli lost..

Tis change is getting me tired.. if u realli like tis person, will u demand so much change from him/her? N if u demand, does tat means u dun realli like tat person.. tats y u need 2 change e person 2 b'cum e one u like? Or maybe his action is normal, juz tat i seldom dress up tats y i find it tiring? I realli dunno.. i onli noe i find myself crying whenever i tot of tis.. but in front of him i haf 2 hide everything.. cos i noe if i spell everything out, it will be over for us. He wants a brand new me.. tats for sure.. if nt, tink he will find it difficult 2 even take a look at me..

I realli hope things can work out well.. but can i keep up wif his pace for long term? Rite now i m already feeling e pressure.. can i still go on? I realli dunno..

BaBy PoOh ended her typings at |8/25/2008 03:52:00 PM|